How hard am I willing to try?

I always ask my kids to try their hardest....and most of the time, they do.  We expect so much out of them and time and time again, they don't disappoint.  Sometimes they do, but I have to give them so much credit.   When I think about myself and trying to do my best I'm often disappointed.  In my head I tell myself I'm trying my best but most of the time, I'm just not willing to try harder.  How can I say that I truly want something without my actions proving that statement to be true.  It makes me think of Heavenly Father listening to millions of prayers of people asking and asking for things that they want or need, and so many times, just minutes or hours later it's like they(including me) completely forgot what I said I'd do.  The truth is, when the going gets to tough, I start to check out, stomp my feet and whine like a two year old that didn't get her way.  Why is it that when I tell myself no I still want to be a toddler and throw a fit? When will I ever grow out of that? There are several things that I want to do or change in my life but even the thought almost gives me hives. lol.  I guess that means, those are the things that I most need to change.  I've been mentally making a list of things that I'd like to do better at, and I'd like to share it.

1. Reading my scriptures.
2. Praying on my knees in the morning.(I'm much better in the evening.)
3. Keep an organized weekly schedule
4. Eat healthy with more consistency
5. Drink more water
6. Eliminate most diet soda

Phew.....that #6 hurts.  I really like it!  But I'm drinking it too often which keeps me from drinking enough water some days.

I WILL MAKE IT 30 WITH NO SUGAR! I'm bigger than this goal......it will not defeat me. :) It's more of a mental challenge now. :)

Well I hope you all are well. Sorry it took me so long to post. Brinley's 5th birthday was yesterday and I've been up to my ears in party planning! (pics soon) Love you all.