90 day Challenge-Jennie

It's not fun when people call you out for being heavier than you used to be.  It's like they think we don't know and frankly it's happened a little too many times for me to feel comfortable anymore.  And not just by my kids...adults as well.  I have this huge fear when seeing people that I haven't seen before.  Its the fear of them looking me up and down with the obvious, "wow, you got fat" look.  I'm so insecure about it and now its to the point where I don't even want to be social or go to family gatherings. I hate taking pictures of myself.  And I think about it far too often.   I've often heard that people don't make a change until the pain of staying the same hurts more than the pain of being uncomfortable when you are adjusting to new habits. Well, it hurts bad and boy oh boy, do I have some BAD habits.   The #1 reason for my desire to change is that I want to be an example to my girls and have confidence. I know that times will eventually be harder for them and its important for them to have high self esteem to get through it.  How can I teach it if I don't feel it? 

I've decided to do a 90 day challenge.  This challenge will help me reach my goals.  I have made a firm decision to do everything I can to make this right.  And by right I mean, change my life.  But I also vow to myself that I will find good in this journey and learn from it.

Here are my goals:

1. I will not initiate eating desserts for 90 days. Except Thanksgiving day, Christmas Day, New years eve. If I'm in a social situation where I would feel rude to not eat it, I will just eat a little bit. A.K.A...a couple bites.

2. I will exercise 4 times a week at least.

3. I will journal my thoughts and feelings.

4. I will not eat fried food.

5. I will read my scriptures daily.

6. I will eat only when I'm hungry.

7. I will eat 3 meals and nothing in between or after dinner.

8. I will abstain from all trigger foods. (Trigger foods meaning foods that make me want to eat more and more regardless of hunger.)


I know this not might make a lot of sense to everyone but it makes sense to me and everyone of these goals are here for a reason.   I feel really vulnerable sharing this with others because it makes me feel weak.  I just hope that after this 90 days I will be in a better place. 

Love you all.